Deafheaven's Personal Journey

Chapter III (support) Thank You

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Chapter I (descending)
Chapter I appendum
Chapter II (for every end a beginning)
Chapter II appendum (What's in a name?)
Chapter III (Support)
Chapter III (support) For A Hurting Friend
Chapter III (support) Realization
Chapter III (support) Fear Of The Unknown And Of The Familiar
Chapter III (support) Motivation
Chapter III (support) LauraKate
Chapter III (support) Thank You
Chapter IV: What I've Learned
Chapter IV: BMR
Chapter IV: Fitday
Chapter IV: The Mighty Caltrac
Chapter IV: The Dreaded Scale
Chapter IV: Journal the Journey
Chapter V: But is it safe??
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Chef Deaf: Through the Looking Glass (magic mushrooms)
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Product Review: Snack Thins
Chapter ?? (dreams) Someday Maybe

Despite all the garbage the internet spews
It has created a global community
And I am ever so fortunate
To have met so many
From so far away

Some seem so full of life... happiness spills from their overflowing cups
Others have type that drips with despair and sorrow
Or sometimes...more subtly... it seeps from in between the keystrokes
The weight of the years can etch deeply upon our aspects
As to the falling rain upon the rock
Others still are youthfully oblivious to anything but the moment
And that’s ok
We’ve all been there

Sadness is ok too
Just don’t sit too long by the roadside
There is a marathon which needs to be run
But it is ok to stop and change your shoes and socks

Sadness is an interesting concept
We do need it

I need my losses to appreciate
What I have and what’s at stake
And when I lose those that I have loved the most
I shall never again gaze in wonder upon their aspect or their mind
Or feel their grief or share their pleasure
I shall never again be able to proclaim or perform the declarations and affirmations
Of unconditional love
Making those moments where I took the time
All the more meaningful and all the more treasured

Discussion and focus oft times seems directed to beauty
But beauty is more than perfectly toned skin
More than perky breasts, tight buns, or abs of steel
That view of beauty is impaired by ignorance
Ignorance of intimate knowledge
Perhaps ignorance of youth and maturity

I do not judge what brings others to this place
For I have my own demons I seek to subdue
As long as there is underlying respect
Ah yes...respect is the key
The difference between those I would associate with
And those I would disdain

Not that I know you with telling familiarity
Not that I am privileged to call you friend
But you have been generous enough to converse with me
Share with me
Offer guidance
Reassurance
Support
What I see when I peer into this 18” window
Is a gift ...
Lovingly wrapped in honesty and kindness

And if someone should lean over and ask....
“Is she beautiful?”
I can, with all sincerity, reply
“Why yes...she is"